Synopsis:
Someone is trying to keep the Doctor from remembering
the incidents surrounding a crewmember's death.
As the Doctor takes holo-images of the crew, he finds
evidence of neurosurgery he performed 18 months ago on Kim. However, he
doesn't remember it. The Doctor asks Seven of Nine to help him run a
self-diagnostic, but later he doesn't recall their conversation. Someone
has ordered a deletion in his short-term memory buffer, and holo-images he
took around the time of the surgery have been deleted. When Seven restores
them, a female ensign they don't recognize is pictured with others in the
crew, and one picture is of an alien on their shuttle.
Once Seven restores some of his memories, the Doctor
recalls pieces of events from the pictures. When he remembers the alien
boarded their shuttle and shot Kim and Ensign Jetal, he immediately tells
Janeway. She agrees to investigate but tells the Doctor to deactivate his
program for the time being. Before he does, he orders the computer to take
holo-images of anyone who accesses his files while he is off-line and then
reactivate him. Shortly, someone comes into sickbay to delete more files.
When the Doctor develops the holo-images taken, it is Janeway.
The Doctor confronts Janeway, who tells him that he was
damaged during the incident with the alien. It caused a conflict in his
program, so she was forced to restrict his access to memories of that
period. The Captain refuses to tell him what happened, and now that he is
starting to remember, she plans to rewrite his program. After Seven
challenges her decision and she has had some time to think about it,
Janeway agrees to restore his memories.
Scenes from the pictures come to life. The Doctor, Kim and
Jetal were on a shuttle mission when an alien ship attacked. Their shuttle
was boarded, and the alien shot Kim and Jetal. Once Voyager beamed them to
sickbay, the Doctor discovered the alien's energy pulse had remained in
their neural membranes, and the only way to save them was to isolate the
spinal cord from the brain. There was only time to perform one procedure,
and the Doctor chose Kim.
After Jetal's funeral, the Doctor began having a
breakdown. Now that he has remembered everything, he begins agonizing over
the same question of how he could choose one life over another. There is a
battle going on between his original programming and what he has become.
The crew keeps vigil with him, hoping that eventually he will forgive
himself and learn to accept his decision. |

Janeway waiting...

Philosophical discussion?
Overall Rating: A good episode
for a number of reasons. Robert Picardo is an excellent actor and the
Doctor a very interesting character. It is interesting that this theme was
used with Spock and Kirk in TOS as well. The acting and writing were
better than average here and the episode makes you think.
Subtext Rating: This episode
was a subtext festival. From the 2:00am visit to Janeway watching Seven
"sleep", this episode is one of the reasons that Voyager J/7 fan
fiction is going strong. We've got soulful looks, thoughtful
questions and Janeway in a gray t-shirt....what more could we want?
Tape worthy? Yes, do not
miss this one, you WILL want to watch it again!
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